One year. I cannot believe it has already been a year! In some ways, this year has flown by, but in others, it has been the longest year of my life.
One year ago today I came home. One year ago today I walked into the Dean's office at The Catholic University of America and signed my life away. One year ago I lost the identity of 'student' that I had carried for twelve years. One year ago my parents and I packed my whole dorm room up into a few duffel bags and boarded a plane at BWI airport. One year ago I cried as I saw the beautifully-lit, perfectly gridded streets of Phoenix and finally felt home. One year ago I crawled into my own bed and fell asleep next to my dog feeling that finally things might be okay.
The next day started a journey of a lifetime. I went to ASU the next morning and became a Sun Devil, and right after that I searched the San Tan Mall for a job. For some reason, Barnes and Noble chose little me to be their new seasonal worker and I finally got my first job making drinks and selling books. The next few months were a strange state of limbo for me. Eric was still up in Flagstaff and I only saw him maybe five times before the end of the semester. I did not go to school, and I really had nothing to do during the days at all. There was a lot of sleeping, resting, and healing but this time brought me an enormous sense of comfort. I was by no means healed - I still had a long road ahead of me.
So how have I measured this year? I'm not quite sure. There have been trials, successes, losses, and gains. I have tried and failed many things but have finally found a road that seems to be right where I am meant to travel. I have a job I absolutely love, I still fall in love with my best friend a little more each day, and I have a family most people only dream of having.
As I walked into the tattoo parlor yesterday, I felt a sense of closure. This year is over. I made it through, and have only become a better person because of it. No matter what happened, I always remembered that 'this too shall pass' - and it did. A year always seemed like an incredible amount of time, but I have finally reached that benchmark. If I can get through this past year, there is nothing that I cannot do.
One year ago today I came home. One year ago today I walked into the Dean's office at The Catholic University of America and signed my life away. One year ago I lost the identity of 'student' that I had carried for twelve years. One year ago my parents and I packed my whole dorm room up into a few duffel bags and boarded a plane at BWI airport. One year ago I cried as I saw the beautifully-lit, perfectly gridded streets of Phoenix and finally felt home. One year ago I crawled into my own bed and fell asleep next to my dog feeling that finally things might be okay.
The next day started a journey of a lifetime. I went to ASU the next morning and became a Sun Devil, and right after that I searched the San Tan Mall for a job. For some reason, Barnes and Noble chose little me to be their new seasonal worker and I finally got my first job making drinks and selling books. The next few months were a strange state of limbo for me. Eric was still up in Flagstaff and I only saw him maybe five times before the end of the semester. I did not go to school, and I really had nothing to do during the days at all. There was a lot of sleeping, resting, and healing but this time brought me an enormous sense of comfort. I was by no means healed - I still had a long road ahead of me.
So how have I measured this year? I'm not quite sure. There have been trials, successes, losses, and gains. I have tried and failed many things but have finally found a road that seems to be right where I am meant to travel. I have a job I absolutely love, I still fall in love with my best friend a little more each day, and I have a family most people only dream of having.
As I walked into the tattoo parlor yesterday, I felt a sense of closure. This year is over. I made it through, and have only become a better person because of it. No matter what happened, I always remembered that 'this too shall pass' - and it did. A year always seemed like an incredible amount of time, but I have finally reached that benchmark. If I can get through this past year, there is nothing that I cannot do.
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