Every so often there is a day that reminds me that everything is going to be alright. Today was one of those days. Today I woke up to my lovely ragdoll, James P. Sullivan - Sulley for short - climbing onto my bed and snuggling up against me. His purring was the best wake up call I could ask for. For about a half hour there we were just laying there and enjoying the fact that we didn't have to get up and do anything - the moment was ours. I love my little kitten, he brings me such happiness.
Then my phone went off and my best friends asked me to come over for a fun afternoon of Hawaiian themed fun. They had just gotten back from Disneyland where The Tiki Room was celebrating its fiftieth anniversary so they were feeling a bit tropical. My afternoon was filled with laughs, disney music, family, pizza, and fun.
But the moment that really struck me was right at sundown. If you haven't experienced an Arizona sunset, please add that to your bucket list. There really is nothing as beautiful as our desert's sunsets. Eric, Kelly and I were riding in Cheryl - my trusty car. I had Pixar music blasting from the speakers and we were the only ones on the rode. Then, I turned onto Pecos.
The sunset tonight was breathtaking. The desert sky paints the most vivid rainbow there is. The sky was clear with just a few clouds lingering and the sun was bursting through their linings. The bright red was blazing across the sky until it turned into an orange...yellow...and faded into the night sky.
For a moment, all of the stress was gone. All of the depression, anxiety, and angst was completely gone. All of the stress about my show...my worries about summer classes...vanished.
There I was, holding my loves hand, driving down the road I had begged to be on not too long ago.
This summer has been a very interesting one for me. Everyday is a blessing. I keep comparing it to last year and the sadness I felt while watching my time in Arizona tick on by. But this year, I wake up and truly seize the day. I used to absolutely loathe Arizona. I hated the heat, the sunburns, and the feeling of breathing in fire when you turn on the cars air conditioning. I could not wait to leave. Now, I wouldnt trade my desert home for anything. It doesn't matter that this summer is halfway over...at the end of it ill wake up, cuddle with Sulley, and head to ASU. Then I can pick Kelly up from Seton, see Eric, go visit home, or go to my internship. For once, I feel okay. I feel like everything is going to be okay. It's a strange feeling for me at the moment.
So there we were. My two best friends and me driving under the sunset sky listening to the 'UP' soundtrack. And for the first time in a very long time - I was crying tears of pure happiness. There was no sorrow, no sadness. I had found my Paradise Falls like Ellie did in 'Up'. I had found the place I had always dreamed I would be - and that was home. I had to travel the world to figure it out...but I'm right where I need to be.
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